writing about something that's no longer there

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I haven't been around for awhile. Less to do with not knowing what to write and more to do with just not acknowledging it as a thing. This journal section was sort of predominately going to be where I could write about my anxiety and depression. What do I do now that those are fading? Sure, I definitely still feel anxious a lot. My anxiety has been around longer than the other so I think it's going to disappear slower, if at all. Depression, on the other hand, is no longer constant. It does creep up on me sometimes but I can see the light at the end of the tunnel, I know it's going to get better. 

I just don't know what to do with this space now that those aren't things I can focus on. I'm happy to talk about my experiences with mental illness to anyone that wants to hear it, but I want this part of my creative practice to grow with me. One of the hard things is that I feel like things in my mind change so quickly. I can do something one day, and then a month later it no longer feels right. How do I keep myself motivated knowing that a little while later I could no longer feel the same about what I've done?

What do I write about? What do I share? How do I do it?

I'm sure I'll keep you updated as I start to focus in on it.

Cait Rammy